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Loren Kleinman

Loren Kleinman's work has appeared or is forthcoming in "Nimrod: International Journal of Poetry and Prose," "Journal of New Jersey Poets," Upstage," "Poetry Motel," as well as other journals and anthologies. She has been a featured poet at Ramapo College for Women's History Month, The Bowery Poetry Club, The Nuyorican Poets Café, KGB and more. Kleinman was a 2000 and 2003 Pushcart Prize Nominee and a finalist for the Nimrod/Hardman Pablo Neruda Prize for Poetry. Her book, Flamenco Sketches, was the winner of the 2002 Spire Press Poetry Prize. She was the Poetry/Reviews Assistant Editor for "Sidereality."

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At fifteen

I measured time in cigarettes.
Underneath the underpass I smoked reds and dropped
blues next to sucked off popsicle sticks. I straddled the concrete curb
and anointed the night with love. I was alive, shaken
from my motherís womb into abandoned homes
where pigeon shit painted the floor white.
I ripped off loose wood from doorways and climbed to the top
of the roof. I wanted to jump off into the summer.
I wanted it to break me in half. Fold me
like heaven and hell, put me at war with myself.
I wanted to feel the air against my cheeks and fuck. At fifteen
I was stuck between the good and the bad part of town. I
was stuck between tomorrow and today. I couldíve done anything.
All my hopes descended upon my heart. I hummed paradise,
became those streets that tied into other streets,
became my own country. How I talked, my soul suspended.
Like angels on metal swings. I couldíve been anyone that evening.
My eyes stretched through fields. I was incurable.



© Loren Kleinman



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